~zwitter!~
doesn the name of this post juz make u wanna say "IONS!"? haha. ok prolly not for u non bio/non chem ppl out there. haha. but anyways...
sBeen a week since my grandma passed away...(for those of you who didn noe she did. well. she did.) rather hectic and upsetting week(especially the front part) thanks for all your concern ppl. To those who knew and showed concern for me. To those who didn knew(cos i didn exactly go on TV mobile) but wud have been dam worried non-theless. THX.
My grandma had cancer. It was quite upsetting to see her wither away week by week. You know the process of how a baby grows up rite... first he starts realising the world around him... then he learns to talk... to feed himself. Then his thinking abilities become more sorted out.
Well. Cancer did the exact opposite to my grandma. It sorta degenerated her. Its as if she was changing back into a baby... then an embryo... then no life. hah. At first before the cancer got to her head she still had a clear head. after she became bit blur, she got too weak to walk. then she too weak to feed herself as well. Last friday her condition worsen and she lost consciousness. She breathed her last at 6pm last saturday.
[THIS WHOLE SECTION ABOUT MY GRANDMA. SKIP IT, READ IT. UP TO YOU]
She lived under the same roof as me for the past 17 years. Consequently im also the one who she dotes on the most. Even when she became blur and all. She messed up everyone's names... But the one person she did not forget/mix-up-name was me. Shes the same person who fed me porridge and sunny side ups when i was little. The same person who help take care of me everytime i ran a fever when i was young. Now that person is gone. And all we've left of her, are the memories... and a room full of her stuff. Even now after much of the stuff has been cleared up... I can still picture her sitting on her bed dosing off infront of the TV. I can still smell the smell she always carry with her(its not perfume). Its as if she didn even leave the room. Few weeks ago when she fell at home... Who wud have thought that would be the last time she stepped into that room... Hmmm. When she was still around, the one thing that my grandma kept reminding me, was to study hard. So thats what i intend to do. Sometimes i may end up playing abit, but my studies will take up most of my time liao. I just want to do something nicely. For once. For myself. For my grandma.
Heres a little tribute to my grandmother:
American Hi-fi - Another Perfect Day
I'm holdin on
waitin for your call
it's simple but I can't explain this
I'm sinking down
I feel like I could die
I'm falling off
I don't know why
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
So I might try
to leave it all behind
I know tomorrow's not so bright now
I'll say goodbye
cause nothing good can last
you wear and fade,
you're no where fast
but today
I don't know how
to keep it all inside
but I guess I'll let it slide.
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
Today, I don't know why
I thought that it was real
but I guess it's no big deal
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.
I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how
to let it slide...
And heres another song dat erhh... kept me going when i was down...
We were at the beach!
Everybody had matching towels!
Somebody went und...
HAH. Just kidding. Its not rock lobster. lol. ok ok. heres the real deal
Good Charlotte - Hold On
This world, This world is cold
But you don't, you dont have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mothers gone and your father hits you
This pain you can not bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Your days, you say they're way too long,
And your nights, you can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you dont want to no more
You're not sure what you're looking for
But you dont want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching its not over
Hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching its not over
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Hold on
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well, least now im feeling better. so dun worry anymore ppl, if ur still worrying. Just have to get used to some stuff i guess. hmmmm. Just a few more weeks to prelims... and im not prepared yet! HMMMM... I MUST MAKE USE OF MY REMAINING TIME BEFORE PRELIMS WELL!!
So dats it for now. heh. BYEBYE. Blog may go on hiatus under the lalo's pleasure, for as long as he deems fit.
