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I havent really talked to anyone about this before but during this period of break, when work is all done and finished, I find myself thinking bout Mom every single day. Basically whenever I'm alone thoughts of her will just creep into my head.

This might be kinda creepy but in the past i've actually dreamt of my Mom dying and my grandmother dying. I guess thats just my mind trying to prep itself for the worst case scenario. But all I had to do was wake up from the dream and everything would be alright. Now its just the reverse, I see my mom in my dreams all the time and I wake up to the nightmare that is reality.

I dont know if i've mentioned this before but I've always seen my Mom as the pillar of my life. Like no matter what happened, I could always tell myself: "hey you've still got a wonderful mom and a wonderful family, you're so lucky." Now I can't do that anymore and its just so tiring standing by myself with no pillar to lean on.

When I'm with friends and when I'm doing stuff its fine, I dont get to think too much but when I'm alone my mind just cycles through the same memories over and over again. Imangine what a Harry Potter fan would do when the whole H.P movie series end. Just keep watching the same titles over and over again, cos thats all he's got left.

And theres ALWAYS the icing on the cake.

Just heard from my sis, dad told her just now that he's found a girlfriend.

WOW.

How bout the icing ON the icing?

Shes PRC.

Haha. REEEEAAAAAAALLY emo post i know, I just had to get that out of my system, and hey, if you see this post and you see me or anything, dont be scared to ask if I "wanna talk about it" cos I might just do.

~UPDATE UPDATE~

yes i do realise i have not updated for a very long time. I think i've changed to becoming more active on facebook... not that I was very active in blogging earlier on but you get the idea.

Hmmm. One sem ended, and i've alot of polishing up work to do. Still, most of my time the last few days have been spent preoccupied with games. sigh... And i have yet to start my running routine up again... lol.

I was suppose to have some youth olympic game internship for this hols but after we went for the interview we realise that alot of the things they require we have not learn yet/ will not learn. So in the end we just told them we were not suitable for the job. (but that didn stop the thing from dragging back and forth... haha. cos we were all trying to reach a compromise so that we can actually be of some help but I guess the main factors were still missing so it was a no go)

Other than that. Oh yarrr i've been to kuala lumpur. Didn blog bout that. hahaha. Well it was basically similar to singapore in terms of shopping options. And no, the stuff there were not necessarily cheaper. The train system was kinda like toyko though... In the sense that they had many different operators running different lines, and so if you wanted to say switch from one to another you had to get out of the current and get into the other one. unlike SG's MRT system which is more seamless. Im not praising the MRT system here or anything but just to put things into perspective.

Oh but the malls I must say are much bigger than SG. There was this particular mall which had sort of a left and right wing and each wing was 10 stories high. so thats 2 x 10 levels of shopping. To top it off theres an amusement park built right into the mall itself. so you can imagine the scale. If you cant then wait for me to upload pictures... prolly on facebook. hahaha. 2 x 10 levels of shopping sounds really impressive but actually the shops start to thin out after like the 5th or 6th level and you just get empty levels higher up. Then suddenly on the tenth level is the food court. -_- whats this price targeting ah? only the price sensitive customers will find out about the hidden foodcourt and actually bother to go 9 levels higher to get cheaper food.

Had alot of people wishing me happy birthday this year. ALOT more people compared to previous years, even people who i haven seen in years or people who actually i dont really know who they are =x but heh. Thanks guys. =)

Nothing much to update already really. hah. erhhhh... yah. bye for now. haha