~jaded?~

hah. dats wad im feeling like right now(refer to title). ohhh btw i just had a block leave. haha. booked out tuesday night all the way till today. heh. think im suffering from post book out withdrawal symptoms. haha. either that or im just, well, feelin jaded! hah. cud be both though.

although i at the end of my block leave, im still feelin tired. tired about the way my life is proceeding now. Im spending so much time in camp everyweek just training(slogging) away my days. During which i would most of the time be thinking bout my friends and family and the freedom outside.

But when i book out, there doesn seem to be much for me to do. I end up doing almost the same thing everyday. kinda feels like i just finished one long day of leave instead of many days of block leave. Its like u take an afternoon nap and suddenly you wake up its 12am already. you spent the past few hours relaxing but it feels like just one long one cos you've been doing the same thing during that time. (yes it has that "block leave ends so fast" element in it as well)

i just have no clue what to do. so sick of staring at the com everyday. go out with friends aso do the same things.. haha.

getting tired of waiting for that phantom letter to come as well. for all i know, it may just be a figment of my imagination. haha.
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dunoe if that constitutes for being jaded. =S
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