~OMG~

I havent really talked to anyone about this before but during this period of break, when work is all done and finished, I find myself thinking bout Mom every single day. Basically whenever I'm alone thoughts of her will just creep into my head.

This might be kinda creepy but in the past i've actually dreamt of my Mom dying and my grandmother dying. I guess thats just my mind trying to prep itself for the worst case scenario. But all I had to do was wake up from the dream and everything would be alright. Now its just the reverse, I see my mom in my dreams all the time and I wake up to the nightmare that is reality.

I dont know if i've mentioned this before but I've always seen my Mom as the pillar of my life. Like no matter what happened, I could always tell myself: "hey you've still got a wonderful mom and a wonderful family, you're so lucky." Now I can't do that anymore and its just so tiring standing by myself with no pillar to lean on.

When I'm with friends and when I'm doing stuff its fine, I dont get to think too much but when I'm alone my mind just cycles through the same memories over and over again. Imangine what a Harry Potter fan would do when the whole H.P movie series end. Just keep watching the same titles over and over again, cos thats all he's got left.

And theres ALWAYS the icing on the cake.

Just heard from my sis, dad told her just now that he's found a girlfriend.

WOW.

How bout the icing ON the icing?

Shes PRC.

Haha. REEEEAAAAAAALLY emo post i know, I just had to get that out of my system, and hey, if you see this post and you see me or anything, dont be scared to ask if I "wanna talk about it" cos I might just do.

~UPDATE UPDATE~

yes i do realise i have not updated for a very long time. I think i've changed to becoming more active on facebook... not that I was very active in blogging earlier on but you get the idea.

Hmmm. One sem ended, and i've alot of polishing up work to do. Still, most of my time the last few days have been spent preoccupied with games. sigh... And i have yet to start my running routine up again... lol.

I was suppose to have some youth olympic game internship for this hols but after we went for the interview we realise that alot of the things they require we have not learn yet/ will not learn. So in the end we just told them we were not suitable for the job. (but that didn stop the thing from dragging back and forth... haha. cos we were all trying to reach a compromise so that we can actually be of some help but I guess the main factors were still missing so it was a no go)

Other than that. Oh yarrr i've been to kuala lumpur. Didn blog bout that. hahaha. Well it was basically similar to singapore in terms of shopping options. And no, the stuff there were not necessarily cheaper. The train system was kinda like toyko though... In the sense that they had many different operators running different lines, and so if you wanted to say switch from one to another you had to get out of the current and get into the other one. unlike SG's MRT system which is more seamless. Im not praising the MRT system here or anything but just to put things into perspective.

Oh but the malls I must say are much bigger than SG. There was this particular mall which had sort of a left and right wing and each wing was 10 stories high. so thats 2 x 10 levels of shopping. To top it off theres an amusement park built right into the mall itself. so you can imagine the scale. If you cant then wait for me to upload pictures... prolly on facebook. hahaha. 2 x 10 levels of shopping sounds really impressive but actually the shops start to thin out after like the 5th or 6th level and you just get empty levels higher up. Then suddenly on the tenth level is the food court. -_- whats this price targeting ah? only the price sensitive customers will find out about the hidden foodcourt and actually bother to go 9 levels higher to get cheaper food.

Had alot of people wishing me happy birthday this year. ALOT more people compared to previous years, even people who i haven seen in years or people who actually i dont really know who they are =x but heh. Thanks guys. =)

Nothing much to update already really. hah. erhhhh... yah. bye for now. haha

~Back From Japan~

HEEHEE. Actually i was back from japan since monday. WOW. What a trip! To think last week this time I was eating ramen at a stall outside tokyo metro in shinjuku. haha.

I miss japan already. lol. I guess its just that we just didn stay long enough. Didn manage to visit all the places i wanted to visit like harajuku, shibuya and akihabara. BUT i did manage to go to Ochinomizu, the famed guitar street and OH MY GOD. Ochanomizu has guitars is the biggest understatement of the year. The amount of guitars they pack into a single shop and the amount of guitar shops they pack into that single street was like a direct reflection of the amount of people packed in tokyo.

Also, it was actually great to finally be able to know for sure what i have been learning for 2 years is actually applicable in real life? haha. Although my jap was still very limited but i think it managed to help out in a few situations... The words I found myself using the most however, were "ninhongo wa youku dekinai" Haha.

Oh and although i was supposed to be the tourist there, at least once everyday some jap couple/family will ask me to help them take photo. "Shyashin o totte kuremasu ka?" and i always forgot to say doo itashimashite after they thank me =x

JAPAN HAS ALMOST NO RUBBISH BINS! We had to get used to carrying our rubbish with us as we walked around. Also, we have to clear up our trays after meals. Even at Macs. YES i went to try the macs there. Haha. It was pretty different, and you had to seperate the rubbish to the extent of cup, drink, ice, cap, straw etc...

Of all the meals i ate there, most of them were from convenience stores. But the food they have in their convenience stores... WOW. Can taste better than some of the jap food stalls/ restaurants in singapore. Pictures after i end this semester. =) But of all the meals i ate there, the best meal i must say was from this small little neighborhood store. I had a huge plate of beef curry rice and it was cooked so well, i missed the curry the moment i stepped out of the shop. haha.

ok. maybe i'll stop here today. just a small update. TONNES of submission by next week cos semester ending soon. Im happy but stressed out. omg.

~ Japan... ~

Hmmmm. Im going to japan. wahahaha! Its a self-funded trip to see their design week organised by one of my lecturers. Note the term "self-funded". No subsidy, cant even use edusave! haha. return tickets plus accomodation abot 1k+ abit then food will depend on what i eat there. Also, although we're not really there for the design week. More like for the design-weekend. Cos we're flying off on a thursday night and coming back to sg on monday night/tuesday morning. And classes resume on tuesday. The 9.30 - 9.30 kinda class. WOW. but still, JAPAN! YAY. Hmmmm dont think i'll be able to buy a guitar from japan for this time. Schedule should be quite packed. Sad, really one of the things I want to do on my list. But i guess there will be other chances. I hope i'll at least be able to ask wheres the toilet when im there...

Just got back my camera from ben. Lent it to him last week. But passed to his fren instead cos he wasn booked out yet. Received the HP details from ben so that it'll be easier to contact his fren. "Sebas 912345678" Initially i thought i was gonna meet some indian/malay guy. Sebas... how do you even pronounce that. "see-baz"? "sae-bez"? Weird name la. Then it struck me. It was short for Sebastian.

Keep dreaming bout my mom nowadays. Like every few days will dream bout her that kind. That day my neighbor asked(in dailect) if i dreamt of her and i told her yea 3-4 times. and she said very "ling" haha. Last night's dream was quite nice, well everytime i dream of mom its nice la. haha. Last night she was in a very graceful light blue dress and she was dancing(ok she never danced. at least not when i was around) and she was very slim and had this beautiful aura around her but can still see that its mom. lol.

Still quite excited bout the jap trip. =D

~Simple Solutions~

Hmmmm. I just feel that some things have been over complicated. I should always keep things simple. In life, in design. Adding more lines to a mistake only makes it worse. Best is to start on a fresh sheet of paper, and toss away all that crap and bull. So thats what im gonna do.

sv_restartround 1

~1 Week~

Wow. One week passed by so quickly. No more holiday! haha. The past week was actually a project week where we REALLY didn need to go to school. How nice was that. Never mind that hari raya overlapped and we were kinda shortchanged(I dont have lessons on mondays so i wuda been shortchanged anyway. YEA THATS RIGHT. NO LESSONS ON MONDAYS. AND FRIDAYS), it was still a good week of aimless fun and not really doing anything work related. haha.

Arkham asylum took up my last sunday and monday. Got my laptop on tuesday. Subsequently got a table for my room from ikea(where else) on wednesday.






So now my room is like this. Just shifted my guitar in from the living room. But kinda takes up alot of space wondering if i should shift it back... haha.
So now my room setup is quite nice... As you can see, when i operate my laptop my upper torso is supported by my orange beanbag which i got ages ago(finally its starting to pay off). Only disadvantage is that its really easy to fall asleep in that cozy little corner. So i think i might still do most of my work in school. Which is the reason why i got a laptop in the first place.

Decided not to install games on my laptop. I dont want to bring my games to school. Then i wont be able to work even at that place. Quite happy with my new laptop. Has this face recognition login thingy so when i look at the log in screen for windows the webcam looks at me and logs in for me. Quite cool. Until you get to a new place with different light conditions. Then i've gotta take some mugshots in that lighting condition so that the laptop will be able to recognize me.(of course theres the old school method of just typing) Other than that if im back facing some strong light then my whole profile is black, then it cant recognize me as well. Which is a pretty common situation seeing as how my room is setup...

Going to school to finish up some work tml. Prolly take the whole day. Best to wake up earlier...

Nick is really hardcore at getting shows. He updates us on his progress via facebook like cable tv catalog so you know what movies are up and coming. Oh, games as well. Kudos to him. Really happy for him to have won that 47inch LG HD tv from that need for speed competition during the games convention asia. Seems like he had a history of winning these things back when he was in HK. Good shit.

Dats abt it now. Update again next time. wahaha.

~Update~

Hmmm... I suppose i should update abit. Last weekend was the first weekend where i resumed my "Normal" life. Erhh... nice to see the guys again in the kind of environment im familiar with... haha.

Work is still manageable but we're kinda being forced to participate in this design competition. haha. But if win its a trip to japan to see their design week. and an internship as well. wow. sounds so tempting right. haha

Realised the other day that i missed the deadline for application for JLPT. Hai... Just put the matter at the back of my head and after "things" settled, suddenly realise im too late. Haha. Kinda feels like im always too late for things. ~_~ anyway aso dunoe what level to apply for. Failed JLPT4 last year, this year dunoe still wanna go for 3. guess i wont have to make the choice now.

Thats about it for now. heh.

~ Admin Matters ~

The cremation was today. Thanks to all those who came to my mother's wake. I really appreciate the support you guys are giving me. I'll be fine and im gonna live my life well.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many admin matters to settle suddenly. Are we keeping the car? Right now only dad drives and he doesn drive to work. My sis is gonna take her test soon but before she passes dad is the only one who drives. But if we sell the car then my sis would pretty much have learnt driving for nothing.

Then we gotta decide when we gonna get our maid to leave. With my dad's income we cant keep her employed under us for long. It almost takes up 1/3 of my dad's monthly income to employ her. But she took such good care of my mother while she was alive, feel kind of bad that we make her change environment and all right after my mom's death. Feels very 过河拆桥 to me.

Rah then have to settle all the bank related stuff from mom's side. Includes phone lines...

Hai... very tiring.

Anyways, heres a picture of my family. Its one of my favourites, taken when I was still very young. I think its my birthday, but my sis says its hers. -_- Anyway here it is.

~Goodbye~

Mom, I love you but I guess this ending was inevitable. We all tried our best but if this is the way it has to be then please know that you will always exist in my heart and I will never forget the 22 years of unconditional love that you gave me.

Goodbye mom. I'll see you some 70 years later? Heh.

~ - ~

Mom is now very much like a child. She cant talk to us anymore just makes sounds that we dont understand. The simple act of breathing, for her has become a chore. Its like the only "chore" she can cope with right now. Its so painful to breathe so hard that she moans in pain when the morphine is not enough. Those are the only sounds I get to hear from her.

Its really heartbreaking to see her like this. My sister is stronger than me. I know shes bleeding inside as well but shes still taking care of Mom to the best of her ability. I'm trying my best as well but I cant hold it in as long as my sis.

It'll prolly happen in the next few days.

Everything just keeps reminding me of her right now. rawr.

~Things You Wont Know How To Answer~

One morning couple of weeks ago before i school started. I was at my mom's bed and she asked me:
"Boy, 为什么做了这么多,到最后还是没有用?"

how do you answer something like that?

Just now according to my sis, mom woke up for awhile(cos they stopped her morphine to give the antibiotic). And she kept asking questions like: where am i? why am i here? Faster pay them the money and go. like shes oblivious to her own condition.

how do you answer these kind of question?

dont know what to type already la. waoieanf egoiellgdn oiqlkadgn gklesd.,

"妈妈,我可以跟你换吗?"

~PHEW~

wah. just got back from hospital. mom developed pneumonia and fever within 1 day from coming home. the oxygen concentrator sucks man. I was really really scared just now. At least her condition is stabilized compared to just now. arg.

~ Memories? ~

Brought mom home back yesterday. We're trying to let her stay at home for as long as possible... Shes already on oxygen concentrator and all and shes very weak. In fact, I think she'll be going to the hospice in the next few days. Cos we're kinda worried about the fact that we have no medical knowledge to handle the medical complications that may occur. And according to my sis, mom is obviously weakening by the day. =\

Ironic part was that yesterday was dad's birthday. Still celebrated abit with some cake but the mood was just very bad. Must have been quite bad for him. Guess it kinda feels like my 21st bday last year for me, when my grandfather passed away.

Kept thinking alot these past few days. About how my Mom worked so hard to bring my sister and I up. Just when its almost time for us to take care of her instead, she has to leave. And leave in such a painful way. There still so many things that she must want to do and so many things that I wanna give to her. My first pay-check, my gf/wife?, my first child? but its just not gonna happen anymore.

Maybe all of this wont matter in a few years time. After its just 3 years from 2012 right? Maybe i'll see her in 3 years time. Haha.

I really dread the day when Mom turns to Memories...

~ Cake Anyone? ~

Hah. Interesting title? Lemme explain. Ever since secondary school, i've been learning and coming into contact with this thing called functional writing. Back then i thought it was just another useless section of the English subject that required only storage and regurgitation.

As the days went by I slowly found myself in more and more situations where the drafting of a formal letter was required. Like when I was doing my Admin jobs and had to send out emails to boss(es) and external people, and when Wei Bin kept asking me to help him out with replying to his customers from his family's bus business.

But of all the Formal Letters I had to write so far, the one I just wrote takes the cake. (and i imagine that it will keep the cake for a long time). I just drafted my Mom's will(or at least the part which concerns an insurance policy payout). Right? Takes the cake right? Its just one of those things you would never see yourself doing in a million years. LIFE is like drama.

~IWFYITD~

anyways "discovered" this song couple of months ago. its very wols to post it but kinda appropriate i guess. For those who are wondering why got ants near the beginning of the video, I guess its a reference to the surrealists. For them, ants were always used as a symbol for death. See if you can understand the MV better with that info(assuming you've seen it before)

Anyways, im fine so please do not worry about me. I will continue believing and hoping for the best, because I think if any miracles are gonna happen, i've gotta start first by believing. At most I'll just be dissapointed so theres nothing much to lose. heh. Hopefully I can juggle school well and I'll try to siam as many unimportant events in school as possible. Most prolly wont be going out over the weekends liao. Good la. Save money. Haha. So thats about it. The song is really stuck in my head nowadays... haha

~Rah.~

Today was another black black day. Mom got sent to the hospital early in the morning via ambulance cos she had difficulty in breathing. Dad went over with the ambulance and we went over awhile later.

When we reach the hospital, the doc asked if we knew her cancer had spread to other regions like the lungs. We were all "WTF?!" Past few days her leg swelling actually subsided quite abit. I thought it was a good sign... But it was just like with grandma that time... Eventually cancer spreads to many different parts of the body and you know thats very very close to the end already... I really dont know if I should be telling her... Shes still very much concious and alert. Even at this point, shes still asking me to bring coffee powder for my aunt at the family gathering and what not. Still thinking bout giving this to this person, passing that to that person. Hai...

So yea today, quite a fucked up day. Basically from my past experience with my grandma's case, i know i dont have much time left with my mom. Chances are high that she wont be coming back home from this hospital trip already. And, I just love her so much, i cant bear to see her go. Really feel like just throwing everything aside. What can be more important than my mother. RAH.

So to you guys reading this, REALLY. Treasure your loved ones and every moment you have to spend with them. Things really start to suck when you enter the final countdown.

Btw happy birthday singapore.

~SCHOOL~

oh yea school starting tml. Hai... Im so gonna miss the holidays. haha. But then again im looking forward to the stuff that i'll do in school. Hopefully can see some friends back from my foundation class. hmmm. Working during hols really makes time fly. 2 months just came and went like that. RAH and i still have things that i "planned" to do during my hols that are not done. hahaha. dammit.

Im having a four day work week kinda timetable again. This time my free day is on monday. But tuesdays are gonna be killer... 9.30 till 8.30 with a super early ½hr break and a one hour break at 5. Warrows... cant imagine how much i'll hate my tuesdays. rest of the week generally ends around 5... my earliest day is wednesday, which ends at 3.30 Dont understand my timetable for friday though. Basically it starts at 9.30 and ends at 5.30 and its one continuous chunk. No pockets in between.

Kinda reminds me of this


haha. Really lidat i'll K.O soon man.

~WAH~

had quite a lousy day today.

Mom told me in the morning that i must "做好心里准备" or "be prepared for the worst".
Felt shitty the whole day after that. crap.

~I AM BACK~

waha. ok actually i came back friday evening. But i wasn exactly free of ICT yet. Had to go for some mobilisation on sat.

ICT was NOT what i expected it to be. I thought at least for the first ICT they will just leave us alone in the bunks to erhhh gel and build bonds with one another. hahaha.
Turns out we've to go outfield for training right from the start of the 10 year cycle.

Although it wasn all chalet and resort, it was still great to see all the familiar faces. Faces that were "shagged" and tired when my own was "shagged" and tired during my 2 yrs in National Slavery.

Some of my friends were already working in the different sectors. Most of us are still studying. Kinda cool to hear from all those who are working and find out the details about certain things you never knew.

Quite funny also, cos i saw my junior from GESS NCC there. He was an officer who just got posted to the side that trains reservist ppl. Haha. My cousin is in the unit i was 2 yrs back. But i didn go back so didn get to see him. heh.

Hopefully i'll be able to join these guys throughtout my 10 cycles of reservist. (Theres a chance to get posted to some other unknown unit if one defers)

Back to work tml...

~Goodbye Normal Comfy World~

RESERVIST. Nuff said.

Just incase it wasn enough, let me expound. Going back for reservist for a week or so. Ends on sat officially. Starts tml. ~_~ have to lug all that baggage back to that ulufied shithole again. REEEAALLLY feel like just taking a cab all the way there from my place. urg. but its gonna be so expensive! rah.

so i've been working for the past couple of weeks. So admin job from parkway again but this time im under people/human resource. Shuffling between gleneagles hospital and this office building at bendemeer road. The pay sucks, 6.50/hr but at that point in time 6.50/hr presented itself as better than 0/hr. To add salt to the wounds im processing health screener's timesheets which are at rates of 8.50/10/12 bucks per hr depending on shifts. like wow. seriously can earn big bucks with that job.

on the plus side i've made a few friends from both sides of the camp. Talking to my friends about random stuff gives me something to look forward to amongst the menial and boring tasks like filing and data entry.

so i've been waking up around 6.45 everyday. One of the plus sides of having a job. It helps keep your sleeping schedule in check. Been running on almost every other day either before i go to work or after i get back from work. Should be able to pass IPPT but don't think i can silver it =x

Nothing much to say already. OH YA. if you guys ever go to bugis/suntec area. Go look for this icescream shop called tom's palette. Its at shaw towers. The building between suntec and bugis junction. Its got some REALLY GOOD icescream. Try their salted caramel cheesecake. Its one of my favourites. Dont go on sundays though, cos their closed.

Thats it. Be back in 1 week's time.

~Baito!~

if you've been wondering why i've not been blogging lately. Its because i am lazy.

That. And the fact that i just got a job(quite tiring one at that) yesterday.

That. And the fact that my mom was hospitalized due to a persistent fever. Doc discharged her but shes still having fever. (Talk about persistent huh)

So the days when she was in the hospital was quite lame. Luckily I didn have a job yet. Cos of the whole H1N1 hoo ha, visiting mom in hospital has been reeeeaaallllyyyy inconvenient. Have to register at the counter before we are allowed to go up everytime we visit. And only 2 ppl are allowed officially to visit a patient. -_- The que to register is just really very long.

Well at least thats over. Hopefully the medicine the doc gave will make my mom better. Mean the fever la. The cancer... Shes visiting some thai doc for it. haha. i know it sounds really unorthodox but the "orthodox" methods have all but failed. The medcine is based on herbs so shouldn have too much problems. Anyways her appetite seems to be improving these days so... Im keeping my fingers crossed. Talk about cross. That faith healing sermone didn work. so yea.

but yea. gotta thank all my friends and relatives who have been suggesting different ways to help my mom. Thank you all so much.

~JLPT~

came across the unedited version of the above pic at the JLPT website. Thought it was kinda nice. Really puts things into perspective no? Feels like its challenging you to take a figure of yourself and plant it on the height that appropriately represents where you stand.

Thats... kinda where i stand now. hahaha. I think this thing has the potential to turn into an inspirational poster. haha. Credits to JLPT.org for the original image.

~wow. He really didn die.~

got that from the CNA website. google it if you want. WOW. Guess this just debunked those conspiracy theories regarding him dying and cover ups. Hmmm... Or maybe this guy who just got caught was actually a homeless guy on the streets! And the forced him to undergo plastic surgery to look like MS! haha. Consiracy theories never end do they?

~Attack All Around~

Recently "discovered" this jap pop grp on youtube. they've been around for awhile already. In fact they did the opening song for Initial D 4 と思います。

what really caught my attention apart from the fast catchy tune of "blood on fire" was the voice of the female lead(misako uno) that really stood out.

check out the MV of another one of their song Get Chu!


Get CHUU!! - AAA (Attack All Around)

かわいですよ！　とてもかわいです！ hahaha

~ McGangbang! ~

hahaha. Figured i should blog bout this although its quite old already. Perhaps you saw my msn nick and wondered what that was all about. So here's a little photo journal of my McGangbang Adventure. Go google up that term. YES, its googlable.

So whats a mcgangbang?

That is essentially all you need to make a McGangbang. Minus the green tea... Just figured i'd be thirsty. So, double cheese burger and a mcchicken. Couldn be simpler.


Thats a Mcgangbang in the making...



TADA!!!


Thats a Mcgangbang!


And thats a picture of satisfaction.



Muahahahahaha. Join me at the dark side...

~ cyril ~

haha not sure if u guys seen this already but check this guy out.





his name is cyril. i think his tricks are really cool. his slight of hand is really fast as well. plus he is the first jap guy who i've seen speak english with an american accent.

~ wow. just saw this cant believe it. ~

haha. think might be a temp staff thats not gonna work anymore. lol. but the guy was so polite bout his queries. =s

~ EPIC ~

check this out! this is epic! haha. might help destress if ur having a bad day



cheers

~ TORADORA ~

haha. I've been watching that anime for the past 2 days. Although i know the series was screening on arts central and just ended, but didn bother to watch. Then now go watch on youtube. lol. Its a very funny show and quite emotional at times. I think its worth the watch. heh.

Just go youtube and find toradora if you wanna watch. all the episodes are there in pretty good quality. heee

~ watch this ~

wow. this was a really powerful film. I feel its really worth the 12 mins of ur time. it shows just how powerful a message can be when it is sent or sometimes, when it is not sent. The music really adds to the feel as well and i think most of us can relate at least to the first few minutes of the video. sometimes things get that magical touch when theres a barrier in between

~ Ideas ~

oh my. today has been a wonderful day. i've been bombarded by ideas in my head the whole day. They all sound so cool and fun. rah rah just thinking bout it fires up the jolts in my nerves. Presentation was good too, even though i didn get my critical text(which i wanted to quote in my presentation) back from charice in time, but i guess i still did ok. well basically the comments were pretty good. =)

quite a good day. Until i discovered fungus on my camera sensor. omg! x_x must be the rainy weather these days. have to send it for servicing. hopefully warranty can cover that or at least cover abit? X_X sending it for servicing after class tml. hai hai. and my electric guitar is down for the time being as well. -sadness-

~D-grayman is back! OMG~

haha. finally the author got better enough to start drawing again. timothy is kicking ass! wahhahaa. but kinda reminds me of zanpakutos in bleach... hehe

~ Look at this guy ~

Go TO THIS LINK and take a look. I had to quote from a more reliable online news source cos it just seems too unbelievable.


I mean wth right? And he can squeeze in a trip to america and other hobbies as well. I can see those JC principals trying to use this as an "inspirational story" already. haha


On another note. Check this short 18 sec vid out. =D cheers.

~ Random Post ~

rah. I've been wanting to get that MRT lady's face out of my first post for very long liao. Guess blogging is just not that big a habit for me these days. haha

Lotsa work from school every week but guess thats just how things are. Still better than mugging for me. haha. Getting more exposed to alot of artist works and i'm beginning to identify more and more of their influences in everyday things. This SEM CCS requires us to do presentations. Basically I did quite well for it cos well, its not that big a presentation really. The marking scheme is also keeping in mind it's the first time some ppl did presentation so compared to PW back in JC this was really erh simple. I remember we even went to the extent of integrating a skit into our presentation back in PW days. haha.

Screwed up my big 3D project on friday though. It's suppose to carry huge weight in my final assessment. But then again its not yet graded so i might be able to change it. Must see how much work i can finish this week ba. haha.

Oh yea i printed my first t-shirt on print making last tuesday. Not iron on ah, silkscreen one okay. haha. I already had that design in mind long ago and just nice have a chance to print it hehehe. buden i didn align it well and it's slanted! hai... guess i'll just have to find perfection in imperfection. haha.

Thats abt it for now. Bye~

~ MRT Lady! ~

This might be super wols but check it out if you havent.

~ Go AWAY! ~

hmmm. Remember that birthday wish i made on my last birthday? I wanted my friends and family to be healthy. Next day my gramps passed away.

Now, my mom's got growthS on her liver again. Cant operate cos doc says cut away so much they whole liver will be gone liao. Cant go on chemo cos the last time she went on chemo it was ineffective already. Thats why she hasn been on chemo after the op. 4-5 lumps on the liver + Cannot op + Cannot Chemo. You do the math. Only thing the doc could come up with was this drug that is pretty new, expensive, slows down the rate of cancer growth but doesn kill off and has risks of high blood pressure and heart attacks. The next best thing would be to hope that TCM can do something about this. Shes already been taking TCM since quite long ago? So im not sure how big an impact will TCM be able to make.

I dont need the world. I just need a miracle.

~ Happy New Year ~

Belated merry christmas and happy new year guys! Lets have a good round this yr.

Haven been updating much as usual. Dont really think I have much to update about. haha. Havent been tripping around to take pictures too. But oh went out last night to celebrate kok wei's birthday. Haha. Lucky guy with birthday on 1st jan.

Ohhh man. school is gonna start this coming monday! argh! Hols are over! haha. But i guess thats ok. At least i still get to keep my 4 day work week. Timetable hasn changed much just that lecture evolved from 1hr to 2hr lecture. Anyways it used to drag to 1½ hrs, so this just make things official. haha.

Heres looking back at 2008.

Wow. 2008 seemed to have passed by really quickly. I guess it happens to every yr la huh. haha. But yea i think 2008 should be my slackest year by far already. Work abit slack alot then work again then slack again, then go school. Guess the important event in 2008 was that i chose to go study in lasalle. haha. Oh if anything else was of significance then must be my 21st birthday! But then my gramps pass away the next day so yea...

But yea speaking of birthdays, 2008 has been filled with ALOT of 21st birthday celebrations for the general population of my friends. haha. Hope everyone had a ball.

Cant believe im getting ang paos again soon. hahaha.